love myself

for yesterday and today. 2 patients thanked me for helping them. I am getting more caught up. A few no shows. A few things went my way. I was able to leave work in a timely fashion. I voted. I napped. I exercised. My lamps came. Thank you for these 2 days and for letting me appreciate them.

Finally I treated myself to a massage after many months !

My scapula had risen up towards my shoulder & is causing headaches so the massage therapist (who was so gentle & made me so relaxed), released the tension & gave me advise to do certain exercises at the gym…rowing pull down for middle & lower scapula muscles.

Also to eat whey protein at the health food store to supplement my diet. He was also a fitness instructor.

I felt like I could have fallen asleep getting the massage.

It went for an hour & was so very relaxing & therapeutic.

I have booked myself in for another 2 appointments in the next 2 weeks before the studen clinic goes on summer vacation until next march / end february 2010. So that is December / January / February until next massages unless I can find a good one that is affordable too in the meantime.

:)

I feel like I almost need a massage on a daily basis. Would be lovely ! Can’t overdo it though ! :)

All my life I’ve been the underachiever, taking on unchallenging jobs and never fulfilling any goals. Sometimes it feels like I’m looking at my life in a constant dream-like state, that the physical person doesn’t gel with the mind. Often I’ve been told by others that I’m smart and intelligent, and that I can do anything I want, but I don’t know where to begin. I recently quit my job ‘cos I found it boring and awful, but now I just sit at home and wonder where my day goes. I’ve retreated from my friends and I hate going out to meet people.

Often it feels like I’m living a lie and am too used to avoiding and running away from my problems. When you walk by the self-help section of the bookstore and think that half of the titles are screaming out how wrong you are, you know you have major self-esteem issues.

I’ve thought of going to a therapist, but I’m not sure if it’ll be of any help.

Is there a formula to loving yourself? I don’t want to love myself based on conditions, e.g. when I look good, when I have many friends, when I earn big bucks. I just want to respect myself and love me for me. I seriously don’t know where to begin.

I want to learn to love myself and stop putting everyone else’s needs before my own.

I need to feel like I am part of the rest. And I cant because in I found out that in order to be loved by people, you first have to start to love yourself.

How do I love myself? I don’t really know. Accepting myself? Finding the good in me. Just loving myself without to much question?!

Some really lovely face masks I wouldn’t mind applying every few days as a treat to my skin & myself to show love…

Very simple & effective & it saves money on beauty regimes…

http://www.care2.com/greenliving/11-one-ingredient-diy-face-masks-for-perfect-skin.html

I send love & energy to mother earth & thank father sky & send loving energy of white light to all my cells…I am healing every single minute of every single day…I love myself no matter what happens…xoxoxoxo

I need to treat myself to something ?

I need to sleep, be positive about my life & work etc …

http://www.care2.com/greenliving/honey-pumpkin-exfoliating-mask-for-gorgeous-skin.html

I also treated myself to a nice pair of work shoes.

They were on sale, I was hesitant to buy them at first but thought mine are falling apart & my other ones are too uncomfortable to wear to work.

Not really a treat as such since they’re for work but still.

I did treat myself to some nice natio natural makeup & some Giselle Bunchin Impanema sandals which are so very comfortable & some of the proceeds go towards restoring forests in South America which is great.

Treated myself to a nice foot soak in epsom sea salts & a foot massage with sesame & olive oil.

It was really relaxing.

:)